first off thanks to WW and loki, seems like you 2 are the only ppl that read these things. thanks.

on to business

thing's've been rough up here..the last entry was ambiguous to say the least [your response: no shit dumbass! you were writing in HTML for chrissake!] fuck it. class is intense. like fail 3 quizzes and you're gone intense. i've bombed 3 and a test and the gods still grant me enough favor to not have my ass booted. still getting over swine flu [no where near as bad as government/media makes you think] and i just had my heart ripped out for the third time by the same girl. first time she ripped it out and sutured it back in about that fast. second time was actually the day after halloween, tore it out and left it to bleed and sutured it back later. tonight...tore it out, stomped on it and fed it to the dogs. gods know i love(d?) the girl but it makes me sad she can't make a decision on her own. everytime she dumped me it was b/c she asked for help and ppl said dump 'im. i'm not against asking for advice, it just makes me sad she won't make up her own mind. oh yeah, she's out of IPU for those who wondered. for those who believe in dreams, mine have been fucked up lately. they're not nightmares, they don't frighten me, but they're undeniably vivid. i'll meet people from the waking world, friends or people i've never seen before and get to know each other in the jewish sense. or be a raging berserker and literaly kill everything i see. those are hard..i can smell the blood, feel bone break. then there're the ones like last night. it was in my basement, as it is in the waking world. i've no idea who the girl was, she had bloodred hair and chalk white skin. we didn't speak but i know her from somewhere. she's...familiar. we kissed once, her on the stairs going up and me on the floor. that...you-never-going-to-see-me-again-but-i-wish-we-could-have-been-kiss. offhand, psychogenic shock sucks. oh, and we're going to my aunts for turkey day. she's got 3 daughters. all under the age of 8. and i'm the walking jungle gym...[shakes head] as if i didn't have enough to deal with...RND's acting up..hardcore this time. so there, that's pretty much it for my rant..if you actually read the whole thing thanks..honestly. nice to know people listen when i vent.

peace

edit: i hate forbidden fruits. with a fiery raging passion.